Sunday, May 23, 2010
After training today in the bus... went past a place... suddenly everything that my teacher told my juniors rush to my head.. the guilty feeling just rush up my head... he said" we do not have enough budget that's why we came to this track without booking it and it because of the sch that don't give us enough budget.. your seniors have not been producing result that's why the sch is giving us lesser and lesser budget but the people that is joining is more... so wat do you all want me to do now... pls train hard and prove the sch wrong..." that is how i understand from wat he say... i felt very guilty to have my juniors taking the pressure from him.. if i would have done better... they won't suffer all these.. but there's nothing i can do... but all i know is that i have done something that makes my junior suffer... and the feeling never goes away.......